Yes, I am stuck on the proverbial dead-end of writing. I veered away from my original outline for my novel and now have to either back track or maneuver my way back to the main plot line. I am in no way, shape, or form saying that writing is a dead end. It’s not.
I personally have come to a spot that some writers call a block. I have been advised by many peers to either push through it or go back and edit, restructure, make more notes, etc. There are tons of things to do if you have writer’s block. I am doing none of these.
Instead, I have decided to stop for a day or two, and just read. I’ve been so caught up in my writing that I haven’t had time to read. Reading is my therapy for all things. I love it and writing equally.
Rather than berating myself for not reaching my daily writing goal, I’m going to relax and indulge my flights of fancy. 🙂 Besides, as a writer, reading counts as work too, right? 😉
Now that Nanowrimo is done for the year, I have to decide what to do with what I wrote. I have come to realize there are few different paths I can choose.
Firstly, I could keep on writing. Nah, no I couldn’t; I know there are parts I left out because I couldn’t get the scene right in my mind. They would nag at me until I was driven insane. The likelihood of my throwing my laptop against the wall would rise exponentially if I left a scene behind.
Secondly, I could leave it alone. I know a few writers who have chosen to do this. Some are going back to finish whatever they were in the middle of when November first rolled around. Others have decided to let their novel age as if it were a barrel of wine. No, I do not think it will get better with age; I am quite sure it will stay exactly the same. Personally, I know if I let it sit, it will sit, forever. I have to do something with it now or else it will become a forgotten and forlorn file on my laptop.
Finally, (I’m sure there are other things I could have chosen, but for time reasons three is all you get.) I could rework/edit my novel. Ding, Ding, Ding, Ding! We have a WINNER! I have chosen to go back in order to move forward. I can’t help it; I love my novel. I have faith that it will turn out to be one of my best works so far.
I know that isn’t saying much, but it is what it is. Currently, I’m going back and making notes of things that need to be clarified, or parts that need more detail, and those parts that have horrible inconsistencies. I’m not going through it with a fine tooth comb: I’m aiming for a more general, basic edit. Guess I’ll see how it goes. I may or may not post something of the novel when it becomes worthy.
Three days late and I have finally hit the halfway point of NaNoWriMo, 25,000 words. It felt like as soon as I hit 23,000 words, I hit a large brick wall. I couldn’t get my mind to focus. Life had gotten in the way.
Life seems to be full of crazy, stressful moments that take over your body and mind. So after two days of a near constant state of an anxiety attack, I have finally calmed down enough to write. I might be able to catch back up and finish the goal, but I’m not betting on it. I will finish my novel, but it is no longer worth the freakout and worry of making daily word goals.
Thankfully I have resorted back to my “stop-and-smell-the-roses” attitude. I look back and almost want to laugh at myself for acting so silly. Life is not so hard.